Three Fictions |
Ways I Used To Celebrate
I join a message board, drink wine & meet a girl. We live together
after I move away from Oxford for the second time. It's October, two
years later, & I'm on a message board, drinking nightly & thinking
about the girl I left. The suburb, the Chinese restaurants. The Shell
station guy who agreed beer should be sold on Sundays. Every day. I
get lost looking for clothes in the closet. The mirror above the
kitchen sink reminds me of losing my virginity to the girl on my
twenty-first birthday. We were in a condo. Her parent's bed. There is
only one bed in Gatlinburg, Tennessee.
I lie, I lied & cheated & stole & spent days spending other eyes,
ears, o faces. Pen numbering. Two o'clock drinking until two o'clock.
Then dreaming of drinking & snakes & elegant tall buildings & the
sound a burp makes when it's silent. Everyone wants something. I used
to make me believe. I had a dream. I was in a lake with two girls. A snake part of a wall (the lake was a pool in Louisiana) broke off & came toward me, girls laughing. I put my hand to concrete, fucking it. I turned & faced the snake. I woke up. |
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