Oh boy, she says, as if she was taking down something not quite of this earth.
I pull out, take a whiff, simply earth. Slightly rotting; possibilities of April growth.
She cleans up, zips up and disappears.
I smell from the touchings and insertions; my face next to this god I crave with my fingers.
This mucking about, trying to dial a phone number.
This mucking about trying to straighten up a corpse.
This mucking about.
In this room, I imagine the woman who sells me fish; complete with roots and stem and dripping black earth that she swallows to spill down the front of her red dress.
This piece of clay. This tablet. This aspirin I stick under my tongue. I suffer the peevishness of perfect strangers while I look around.
This mucking about, smelling of earth.
I prune roses by doing scissors with my fingers, smelling of earth and mud, and yesterday's children.
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